A little inspiration

My life has been changing fast and knee deep in I was starting to freak out. Everything is different, nothing can be the same, I don't know what to do, where to go, or how to do it. Life was depressing, stressful and just plain negative. Eventually it became too much and I broke down, "who cares I'm just a nobody, who will accomplish nothing because life doesn't want me to be happy."
One day I woke up tired of it, I drained myself empty with all my pessimism. Still stressed, still depressed, still feeling attacked by the world, but now I want to do something about it. You can't just instantly get rid of all your negative ways but you can pair it and over power it with something positive. Focus on the positive aspect, even if its minuscule. Build on the positive thinking until negative thoughts are forgotten.
A little inspirational food for thought I worked on to make myself a happier more resourceful person.

• Find your passion, something that moves you, that makes you happy and work for it. Be it taking up a craft, hobby, relaxing more, traveling, anything personally important to you. Finding time for yourself is finding time for living.

• When a chance comes along, take hold of it. And remember consequences are not good or bad, they're changes. When life changes let it, no one said it would be easy, but in the end it's always worth it.

• Life is too short for regret, so love the people who treat you right and forgive the ones that wronged you. Find a reason to laugh every time you can and smile to everyone you meet. Every moment you fill with anger or regret is a moment of happiness lost.

• Life/World/God never throws anything at you, they all challenge you with opportunities. Sometimes these challenges can seem easy sometimes hard, but remember its never an attack, that mindset only leads to fear and negative thinking. Instead see it as opportunities, a learning experience, or even make it a game (life taken too seriously is a life not lived). An optimistic stance might be hard because it's far less work to find the wrong and negative, but it's also far more exhausting to think that way. Take responsibility, take on your challenges with a positive outlook and see how your response changes for the better.

Now go look in the mirror and tell yourself everyday, "I am wonderful and I am brave," then take on the world and all it has to offer.

Sometimes its better to laugh at yourself

I woke up early and had time to relax, wake up, and take my time getting ready. I did my hair and makeup, quite lovely, and headed out into the world. I was on my way to school and had to stop by a store to help get a parting gift for a friend. I got out of my car, opened the back seat, see my yoshi bag (so cute) and all big eyed and bushy tailed, dove for it and BONK! my eye went right into the corner of my car door. Oops, well it hurt but I have a pretty high tolerance for pain so I just said 'ouch' laughed and went in the store anyway. My eye swelled up instantly! I looked like Popeye's love child. The kind ladies working felt bad for my face and gave me a cold compress, all the while glued to my face with a horrified expression. We bought what we needed and headed to school. When I get there everyone under the sun asks me what happened and after the few dozen times it just gets more and more funny! "I tried getting something out of my car got too excited and hit my face on the door." haha, how silly. For some reason not everybody thought it as funny as I did, oh well sometimes you just have to laugh to yourself.

It's not that bad looking, I've seen worse. :,)

Insperation

Emilie Autumn is one of the people that inspires me creatively.
When your low on creative mojo find what moves you and embrace it <3

Acceptance

I am a very shy person at first but I don't hide anything from anyone and I think others should do the same. I don't think people should lie or sugarcoat things to hide who they really are in fear of not being accepted. There are millions of people in the world, who cares if a few don't get it? Everyone is unique and important, never be ashamed to show your true colors.

I think its better to have one or two friends who truly know you and accept it than dozens of friends that only know what you let them. It's very sad when your surrounded by friends but still feel isolated and alone.

Save yourself some self inflicted heartache and just be yourself. Don't feel that somethings wrong with you when your rejected, realize that it has to do with that person judging you (not that they're wrong either). No one is wrong in being who they are, its the only thing that's right.

In being your own person your entitled to your own believes and opinions, and I think they stem from how you were taught and how you took it. From day one your fed and given all sorts of information, 'facts,' lectures, morals, lessons, a code of conduct. Some people adapt perfectly to what they are taught and take it in with the same emotions as the educator projected onto them. But perception of what your shown is what makes unified reality impossible. Reality can only be perceived by the eyes of the beholder, taking emotional symbolism and tying it to the knowledge given.
What is bad for one person is good for another, what makes me smile can make someone sick, what you think as funny I find offensive. Just because a group of people find you unalluring or not worth socializing with doesn't mean you are. But to think your so individualized in every way is plain silly. There are billions of people in the world, many people have a lot more in common with you than you realize. The ones that don't see this are usually micro picking.

Please put the magnifying glass away and look at the big picture.
Its like saying no one makes chocolate chip cookies like I do. Yes, true, maybe they don't, but almost everyone makes chocolate chip cookies don't they? Maybe its two completely different recipes but they both taste like chocolate chip cookies. Meaning, just because a person didn't go though exactly what you did, or they're believes and habits are not quite the same as you, doesn't make them so extremely different. Stop isolating yourself, stop hiding from the world.


Learn to love and respect yourself then the world will follow after, or not, oh well you have too much self respect to care ;)

Eyecandy

Nothing is sweeter than makeup for my eyes, what a tasty treat.

I wear makeup almost everyday it's my favorite part of getting ready every morning. But I don't wear it as a comfort blanket or to 'hide' anything. I wear makeup (a lot of it) because it's how I express myself. People wear outfits, color their hair, have piercings, or tattoos; all forms of expression that make them feel more connected to who they are. Mine just so happens to include bountiful amounts of colors and designs that can be mixed and changed anytime I want.
Why bring this up?
A close friend of mine was confiding in me about how she is insecure and unhappy about how she looks. She uses makeup as a mask to keep herself from feeling ugly, saying she felt naked without it. I can understand, I feel quite drafty and nude without my own face painted like a Van Gogh, but there is a difference. A difference in the emotions that the two of us tie with makeup and the way we perceive ourselves. Here is what I said to her and have to say about that in general

As long as your expressing to yourself who you are, feel beautiful. You don't need a mask to show the world what they want, just to feel accepted or happy. You are your own best friend, you are your closest lover, please no one but you. When your satisfied with yourself you'll be satisfied with life.
Does that mean stop wearing makeup because you use it with a negative notion? No, wear it, wear as much (or little) as you want! But instead of thinking, "I'm fixing myself" think, "I'm expressing myself."

But that's just my opinion.

Zombie Babies

I made myself some cute zombie babies during class today. I'm terribly sloppy with polish so I always find a "messy" kind of design to do.

• balance pH of nails
• paint black
• white blob in the middle
• smaller green blob in white
• take an orange or yellow to make googly zombie eyes (wipe off excess polish from brush to prevent from running before dotting on eyes)
  
• use a fine tip brush/toothpick/or anything with a point to make tiny black pupils
• use black polish ( wipe off excess) and dab/ shimmy a little mouth
• take red polish (again wipe off excess) and at an angle make the blood slashes and drips
• Finish with a clear top coat to prevent chipping

Silly little zombies just make me smile. Personally I have a problem with touching and smudging my drying polish so the best thing about these messy little babies? A little bit of smudging or bumping can just add to the "zombie" look. When I was driving I looked at them and laugh; my friend thought I was goofy, but I'm just smitten. ;)

Dreaming

Dreaming

I have telekinesis living and exploring a giant warehouse with lots of levels to it. On one level is a store where I confess my affections to a male teacher who reminds me I am a student. I go into a home of a bald man who shows me his family. A mother was feeding porridge to their small deformed son thought a hole on the right side of his back. The hole was an entrance to a protruding esophagus spinal cord that trailed along the child's shoulders and down his left arm. The child looked bloated bony and sick. I left through a window and was walking down a sidewalk with boxes everywhere and thought, "I guess not every power is a good one."I wonder what that means?